He
Was My Very Good Friend
I
cannot comes to terms with this, the whole thing seems
surreal
I don't know how to deal with this; I don't know how
to feel
I'm
angry, hurt and confused, pissed off at this disease
that kills
Whether drinking or smoking or snorting, shooting or
"just" using pills
Why
must we go through life like this, terrified and alone?
Feeling like we've never belonged, like we're destined
forever to roam
We
do it to calm the confusion, but mostly to numb the
pain
How ironic that what we then have is more and more of
the same
Those
who aren't like us don't get it, can't imagine what's
in our heads
They cannot possibly fathom, why sometimes we feel we'd
be better off dead
They'll
never ever get it, this tortured existence we bear
This spiritual battle inside us; the one that all addicts
share
I
know better than to question, God's choices I can't
comprehend
But how can I not sit and wonder, why me and not my
friend?
Why
did He grant me this gift, this thing we call recovery?
This journey of spiritual awakening, this path of self-discovery
Damn
it I wish Mitch could have found it; I loved him like
a brother
Why do you pick and choose God? Why some of us and not
the others
Not
because of who we are, I am no better than he
Why did you grant me clear vision? When Miitchell never
could see
Not
because I earned it, it is no prize I've won
Why take a fragile brother? Why take a mother's only
son?
My
only consolation while struggling through these days
Is that you always love us even when we're led astray
By
grace you love us not because of any good works we've
done
You saved us with your greatest gift, your only begotten
Son
You
see us not for who we are but who we want to be
You know us deep inside our hearts, where others may
not see
So
at last he has found peace Lord, I know his hand you
hold
He's no longer weak and weary, but through you strong
and bold
I'm
comforted by your Word, the rock on which I stand
You know you had to save us from the carnal nature of
man
So
knowing this I beseech you Lord, protect him until the
end
Until in heaven I see his face - for he was my very
good friend
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